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Not all that long ago I wrote one of those bitter posts about hits and kudos and comments (you know the type) and because of that I just want to say that I'm having the complete opposite feeling right now.
In the last five days I've posted three fics (I've only written one during this time, the other were just waiting for a last read-over and a title). I can't tell you how many times I've checked my AO3 dash during this time, but I can tell you that I've been happy (almost giddy) every time I did. There has been 0 influx in the numbers of hits, kudos or comments I receive, but damn it if I'm not just so satisfied and content with things as they are right now.
This isn't because I'm somehow better at not comparing myself with others right now or whatever. (Because I'm an idiot and recently did just this...) This is just... how it is! This has been a good few days in fandom for me, and I thought I should write that down so that I'll remember it when I reach another down.
Also, just because I can, here are my three first fics of 2020!
bombs and pets and the things in between (Kingsman, James Bond (Craig movies), Eggsy/Q, Teen and up)
The first time they meet is ordinary. As is the second, the third, the fourth… Actually, so are most of them. Most of the times they meet are ordinary even if so many other things in their lives are not. Except it isn’t ordinary, because it’s them.
The Civilian Who Loves Me (Kingsman, Eggsy/Jamal, Teen and up)
It's not easy living with a civilian, ask Eggsy. He knows all too well how it feels having to go home to a partner time and time again and try to come up with new believable, reasons why a tailor has to leave the country on two hours notice. Luckily, Merlin knows it's not a walk in the park to live with a Kingsman agent either, and he has ideas on how to help out.
Love Leaves a Memory (Black Sails, James/Thomas(/Miranda), Teen and up)
James' first night at the plantation, Thomas asks about Miranda. It takes months for James to tell him everything.
In the last five days I've posted three fics (I've only written one during this time, the other were just waiting for a last read-over and a title). I can't tell you how many times I've checked my AO3 dash during this time, but I can tell you that I've been happy (almost giddy) every time I did. There has been 0 influx in the numbers of hits, kudos or comments I receive, but damn it if I'm not just so satisfied and content with things as they are right now.
This isn't because I'm somehow better at not comparing myself with others right now or whatever. (Because I'm an idiot and recently did just this...) This is just... how it is! This has been a good few days in fandom for me, and I thought I should write that down so that I'll remember it when I reach another down.
Also, just because I can, here are my three first fics of 2020!
bombs and pets and the things in between (Kingsman, James Bond (Craig movies), Eggsy/Q, Teen and up)
The first time they meet is ordinary. As is the second, the third, the fourth… Actually, so are most of them. Most of the times they meet are ordinary even if so many other things in their lives are not. Except it isn’t ordinary, because it’s them.
The Civilian Who Loves Me (Kingsman, Eggsy/Jamal, Teen and up)
It's not easy living with a civilian, ask Eggsy. He knows all too well how it feels having to go home to a partner time and time again and try to come up with new believable, reasons why a tailor has to leave the country on two hours notice. Luckily, Merlin knows it's not a walk in the park to live with a Kingsman agent either, and he has ideas on how to help out.
Love Leaves a Memory (Black Sails, James/Thomas(/Miranda), Teen and up)
James' first night at the plantation, Thomas asks about Miranda. It takes months for James to tell him everything.
